10.1.2011

Happy birthday to myself!

Happy birthday to myself!

Happy birthday to myself!

its hard but its not..
its big but a little tiny..
its difficult but look easy..
its cruel and has more crime inside..

i wish i could be
like a stone without a heart, like the sand without the eyes, like a wood without the ears, and like the leaves without a mouth..
then simple..
its easy to be stone, sand, wood and leaves..
the simple word..
its more peaceful to be heartless,blind, deaf and mute..
BUT the truth is, its not easy..

anyway, it was a test from Allah..
pray and ask for protection from Him..
insyaAllah..


wishes for myself:
-become stronger and brave
-be successful in the future
-FOCUS!
-happy birthday!

moody

selagi boleh sabar sabar lah..

tahap kesabaran aku ade batas!

sorry kawan-kawan bile saya amat marah saya akan jadi macam semalam..

sorry sangat..

i hate to be like that but i have no choice..

A rude nature is worse than a brute nature by so much more as man is better than a beast: and those that are of civil natures and genteel dispositions are as much nearer to celestial creatures as those that are rude and cruel are to devils.

by

Margaret Cavendish 

good go bad

stupid situation just happened to me..

in a big day macam-macam nak berlaku..

geram and marah and last-last redha jela..

1st:

on my brother wedding (majlis sambut menantu)..

ade orang curi duit from my purse..

ok..

it was silly mistake dude!

aku betol2 hangin semalam..bia la orang nak kate aku garang ke ape..

pesal peduli nak amik duit dalam purse aku??

dis is one of ur mistakes that i can't forgive..

ok readers semua..sorry la tiba2 emo kan..

tapi saye kenal pencuri hantu yang bodoh tuh...

ok takpe..

Tuhan maha mengetahui..

sorry aku xkan pernah halalkan ape-ape ko gune @ makan duit tuh

2nd:

today aku emo lagi..

pagi-pagi dah buat aku emo..

haishhh..nape la suke buat aku marah..

ade ke malam nih nak naik bas baru nak g cari tiket..

ingat duk dekat ke..

dah la susah nak dapat tiket..

kalo dapat pun..dapat naik bas cikai je..

nih buat aku bad mood pagi-pagi..

tahu lah bas die nak balik nnt ade kosong je..tiket bas ke lumut slalu je habes..

menyusahkan orang betol la! (kakak emo!)

takpe lah...

naik la ape pun..

bia sakit jantung duk dalam bas tuh..

okkk...

pwincers redha jelaaa

ape pun terjadi redha je..

and harap tak berlaku ape-ape kan

aminn...

Pulanglah ku merindui mu

aku sahut kasar tapak tangan mu..

aku alih pandangan bila bertentangan mata..

aku tahu hati ini rindu..

aku tahu hati ini terluka..

aku hilang nada bila berkata-kata..

aku lemparkan pandangan benci..

aku bisukan diri..

aku tunggu kata-kata maaf dari mu..

aku tunggu tutur alasan dari bibir mu..

hakikat..

hati tak pernah benci tapi hati rindu berombak luka..

zahir nampak tenang..

naluri aku menderita..

cinta kasih semua kau lenyapkan sekelip mata..

aku yakin diri mu juga rindu pada ku..

tuturkan alasan mu..

ungkapkan persoalan di bibir mu..

kau diam tatkala aku pergi..

kau membisu lemah menyahut tangan ku..

kau hubungi tatkala diri ini tiada di depan mu lagi..

aku rindu kasar peti suara mu..

aku pejam mata simpan suara itu..

terngiang-ngiang di cuping telinga kau memanggil aku..

sekarang kau mendiam diri lagi..

biar apa orang kata..

biar apa orang cakap..

aku tetap kenang diri mu..

katakan maaf katakan rindu..

aku pejam rapat mata ini..

aku tutup rapat hati ini pada kisah lalu..

biarkan kenangan berlalu..

yang penting aku rindu..

ku ingin mu bersama ku lagi..

jauh di sudut hati aku rindu..

sangat rindu..

pulang lah ku merindui mu..

p/s: selamat hari raya..pada malam raya aku pohon kemaafan dari mu..moga kau bahagia di mana kau berada..aku rindu tatkala takbir bergema..

*kak aisyah..sedih lah dengar lagu awak* T_T

love is..

for some reason, love is hard

i'm still awkward

Actually, i feel closer to my sadness

love seems far away

we are so different from each other

the only thing we have in common is being fools

though, we sometimes cross each other and sometimes clash

it must be love, it must be love

when i see you, my heart feels so full

my rusty heart, my hardened heart

you have woke them up

love me, hold me

so that the hurt i've kept hidden

my painful tears and sad loneliness will never come back

the person hidden by my tears for so long 

the person i've waited for so long 

must be you, it must be you

if i'm standing with you, even if i'm hurt, i finding myself laughing

even the deepest scars, even the tears that have become habit

you've made them better

i'll show you everything, i'll show you everything

all my love that i've saved up

so that the words "alone" and "goodbye"

we won't have between us

-taken from korean song-

true color

when we talk to people, we doesn't feel it
when we touch their heart, then we know..
oh he/she like this n bla bla bla..
tapi kadang2 benda tuh berlaku bersebab..
takpe la..



p/s1: kalo xfaham buat2 faham la ek..hik3

p/s2: die cakap tak payah peduli orang cakap..
just be me..but i can't T_T
awak..thanks :D

This is not me.. *perhaps*

when i'm thinkin bout u..i feel sad..
when i'm thinkin bout u..i feel bad..
when i'm thinkin bout u..i feel regret..
perhaps she was not me

when i'm talkin bout u..i feel glad..
when i'm talkin bout u.. i feel easy..
when i'm talkin bout u..i feel i'm in the air..
perhaps again she was not me

i wont let u go..
i wont let u live in peace..
i wont give u happiness..
i wont give u space..
perhaps she is me

i will make u cry..
i will make u kneeling in front of me..
i will make u fell bad...
i will make u regret..
perhaps again she is me

but the real thing is i am too weak.
but doesn't mean i'm not care..
*____________________________*

*dont go if u can..but pls go for ur future* grrrrrrr 

DEAR HEART part II

hati sedih sakit takde sape tahu..
tak perlu tahu pun tak pe..
tak perlu amik tahu n baca pun takpe..
hati orang memang kite jage..
hati kite takde orang pun nak jage..
hati, ko tahu aku tak sebahagia orang lain..
ko tahu aku hidup tak macam orang lain..
ko tahu hidup aku tak lengkap macam orang lain..
ko tahu ape jadi dalam kamus hidup hari-hari aku
so hati, jangan ko nak kecik hati ke nak besar hati ke atau nak bangga pape..
asal hidup nih puaskan hati orang tersayang sudah..
cukup dah lah pengorbanan die selama nih..


aim for the best.